| So, I have been praying alot. Friday, saturday and sunday i did this thing called Fasting. That is when you dont eat any food drink nothing but water and pray to God and seek him. Sara told me about when she did this thing called a fasting vision thing, and God let her know that she is beautiful. But, i think everyone knows that already. look at her..she is made by God in his like..image. i mean, im even beautiful. but i dont ever feel that way. I used to hate my self so much.
So, i fasted from talking, eating, TV, and the internet. I was jsut in my room with my new bible and god. I really wanted to talk to Sara, and since CJ was with sara this weekend, i could have probley talked to him. Sara did call, but i didnt answer, but i did have a message on my cell telling everyone that i was really busy this weekend. Sara, i hope u understand.
I was reading...in the BIBLE about love. well, kind of. 1st John. what caught my heart alot was 1john 4: 7-8
Verse 7
[7] Beloved, let us love one another: for love is of God; and every one that loveth is born of God, and knoweth God.
Let us love one another — From the doctrine he has just been defending he draws this exhortation. It is by the Spirit that the love of God is shed abroad in our hearts. Every one that truly loveth God and his neighbour is born of God.
Verse 8
[8] He that loveth not knoweth not God; for God is love.
God is love — This little sentence brought St. John more sweetness, even in the time he was writing it, than the whole world can bring. God is often styled holy, righteous, wise; but not holiness, righteousness, or wisdom in the abstract, as he is said to be love; intimating that this is his darling, his reigning attribute, the attribute that sheds an amiable glory on all his other perfections.
I know, i should write for a living. God has blessed me..
Sometimes, i dont want to love all people. I hate all my Ex's and all, but God wants me to love them even though they were mean to me, i hated all people, but god wants me to love them. I mean, not just the nice people, but ALL people. The people that flick me off when i talk about God, the people that spit on me cause i was Gay, the people that are rude to me, the people that called me Freak...ALL OF THEM TOO!!!
Thats hard. but i am working on it. Happy one year aniversary Sara gomez. She was a hard core mean bi goth punk freak show...now she is a beautiful awesome loveable, hugable , sweet, kind, nice, amazing, WOMAN OF GOD! happy birthday.
thats all. im calling Sara now. later.
brandon |
